hope for the hopeless

what. shit like that always fucking happens and things just fucking die down. no one says anything and i'm left alone hoping for things to get better and it is always me. me. me. me. well fuck me. if you're bored of it, then fucking leave. you know you were meant to help right from the start and you knew fairly well. you said you wouldn't ever and... got the ball rolling but now look what you've caused. i fucking haaaate you. no i'm not ok. just go away i wish i never met you. you don't fucking know how to keep your promises proper.

and j just tell me straight up what the fuck is wrong with you. don't fucking say shit to make me all warm and fuzzy on the inside like im home again and just "ur too lazy to speak with me" and blah. well fuck you too. telling you shit about my life so the least you could do is pretend to give a fuck because you used to care so much and now you're just one of the other dicks whos ever been in my life and walked out. well if that's what you really wanna then GO.

i hate boys. i hate hate proper hate boys and their fucking sweet talk and bullshit and all of that other stuff. just go away. stop being nice and showing me i've got a chance when in fact i've got a chance to blow things up. poppy j seabass and furts you are such a fucking disappointment there i've said it.

?hafidz where are you?